A year of silence

I guess i finally have time to stop here and write out how i really feel...... recently finally figure out.... that i aint waiting for anyone...... i remember i used to able to live on my own..... doing things that make myself happy.... and when i lost someone its like i couldt live on .... for almost a year i keep stopping in that time zone..... i always thought im waiting for somebody but im not its just that i knew i wanted to walk on alone but i also fear that i might lose those happy moments. recently i have finally understand what does it means by memory.... therefore now i aint waiting for anybody....

now im making myself happy by doing what i always wanted to do.... i do not look forward to any relationship..... because there are a lot of things that i want to do which i might not be able to do when im in a relationship....

Yes i do not deny that im a person who doesnt like to break promises.... even if someday that person come back i will see how things is by that time..... if she never ever come back that means everything is ended long time ago .... =)

Ken thanks for always being there for me..... you know that im ignorant....the only way for me to think over all these things is "me" myself.... you know that i wil be fine just that i will take very long time... and now im fine =) regardless ........thanks for always being there for me =)

HAPPY 2009!!!!

Good morning folks, its around 2.57am over here in Singapore (GMT +8). Now is the first morning of 2009!!!

Wishing you all a very happy new year!!!

Remember! Stay safe and be cool always!!!

Cheers,
Ruijie from SG

back from vegas

i just got back and man was the trip retarded. each time i spent money there, i felt like i was bound for hell when i die. expensive things only geeze. there were also pimps like everywhere. the casinos were soso. jackpots were crap and nobody won anything. you will have a better return burning your money, at least you can cook food or keep yourself warm. aside from that, on the way back my plane was delayed by 4 hours due to snowstorm. trust me, sleeping at a terminal is not something which you would want to experience. the lack of oxygen and entertainment will soon lead to halusination. as many who have gone over the edge started chattering nonstop to ensure that they were still seemingly sane and as for myself, i just stood there, sat there and stoned...

by the time i reached home, i am devestated to know that i have absolutely nothing to do :(
this sucks

Time for adventure

as you know, i am actually leaving for vegas tml morning at 4am which sucks balls but at least i can have the rest of the day for sight seeing. the exam i was so scared over turned out to be easier than i had in my nightmares, but that isnt a good thing. it also means it was easier for everyone else. Mcgill is seriously a ain in the ass. i dunt know why everyone has so much competition. it feels just like singapore argh w/e.

so anyways what is with your fetish over black male presidents RJ? thats so hard gay nevertheless shipping might cost a fortune hmmm. maybe its better if i just bring it back to u nest summer. (like if shipping is gonna be 50bucks no wai).

lasvegas, i should google and find something intersting to do there. ahhh i havnt pcked yet and will get my usual dosage of ownage from my mom :/

Done with it!

Last two weeks were kinda nerve wrecking and stressful due to mid term exams for me and for Kenneth as well. But this is it! Its the 13th of December and we're done with our exams hooray! No more cramming, no more reading and no more classes YES!

Ok ok enough with the fanfare haha. Holidays have just began and lucky Kenneth is going to Las Vegas for some R & R while i'll be stuck on a tiny island doing nothing. Although its holidays, i am still haunted by 5 pending projects as well as having to oversee the production of the graduation video for the course. Call me unlucky. Kenneth, some Obama merchandise would be nice for a gift exchange.

Singapore's kinda in PMS mode. Its raining almost 24/7 with no stop (not that i'm complaining, its damn nice to sleep in this current weather). Hope the weather does not interfere with Christmas celebrations or i'll be pissed (even though i'm actually at the mercy of the greater power).

Ok thats it for this entry. Its kinda short but i guess no one likes to read essays haha. I'll try to include pictures for the 22nd celebrations so look forward to them. Till next time, URA~!!!!!

RJ

Vampirism

i always wondered why i need people now. more so than in the past whereby videogames were much more to my tastes. i cannot get the same joy i used to have as a child. now, like a vampire that feeds on blood, i too feed. but not in blood, rather in the souls, happiness sadness anger whatever. just hearing people talk makes me feel alive. it tells me to keep breathing and that there is purpose in life.

this isnt a healthy way to live at all. where in the world did it come from? i want to be able to self-endulge but i cant. i enjoy too much being in the presence of others. is it because i cannot feed on my own essence? is my existance but an empty shell that requires constant refilling from alternative external sources?

i want to provide my own energy. i want to create my own happiness. i want to live...

and if i am a vampire regardless. where else can i get my feed...? from pets? i have been wanting a dog for awhile. it is the closest thing to a baby and requires less commitment. and i love babies =)

comments

wow! nice first post. i enjoyed the turn of events which lead to a humorous ending. well maybe not for u but anyways... xD

i wish i had something of that class to rant. unfortunately life now for me is very monotonous. i guess the only amazement is outside of my doors. my mom and sis missed their plane and thus missed their cruise trip. they are gonna detour to Miami and hopefully hijack from there.

sigh... some people get all the excitement >.>