A year of silence

I guess i finally have time to stop here and write out how i really feel...... recently finally figure out.... that i aint waiting for anyone...... i remember i used to able to live on my own..... doing things that make myself happy.... and when i lost someone its like i couldt live on .... for almost a year i keep stopping in that time zone..... i always thought im waiting for somebody but im not its just that i knew i wanted to walk on alone but i also fear that i might lose those happy moments. recently i have finally understand what does it means by memory.... therefore now i aint waiting for anybody....

now im making myself happy by doing what i always wanted to do.... i do not look forward to any relationship..... because there are a lot of things that i want to do which i might not be able to do when im in a relationship....

Yes i do not deny that im a person who doesnt like to break promises.... even if someday that person come back i will see how things is by that time..... if she never ever come back that means everything is ended long time ago .... =)

Ken thanks for always being there for me..... you know that im ignorant....the only way for me to think over all these things is "me" myself.... you know that i wil be fine just that i will take very long time... and now im fine =) regardless ........thanks for always being there for me =)